Sorry I've been a bit absent lately. I haven't had much going on to post about. Things with Lia have been moving along at a snails pace and I have to admit fear has started to creep in little by little. While yes I believe there is a perfect timing for all of this. If I'm truly being honest I have to tell you I've struggled to be patient and remain strong during this last wait.
As a woman who has always had a fear of rejection you can imagine how something as important as this has been plain gut wrenching for me. While I've done my best to put on a strong front and stay positive I have to admit each time someone asks me how things are going on the inside there is a power struggle brewing with the fear of rejection.
The only thing to bring me peace is to read. I’ve held tight to
Proverbs 3:5-8,
2 Timothy 1:7 and
Philippians 4:13
I began to struggle big time yesterday but remained strong in him and something told me to wait to post my ramblings until today. Well you'll never guess what finally came in the mail today. After what seemed like an endless wait, DCF$ determined we were equipped to be parents
. Yep you guessed it we received our endorsement letter from DCF$ today!!!! Who knew a little endorsement letter could make this mama cry so much. I know it doesn’t sound like a long wait but it was truly making my heart ache!
I hope to do better with the next wait from duh duh duhhhh. . . . U$CI$. I sure hope we get lucky with this one and the wait is on the short end of things rather than the long end like all the others in our journey. Wish us luck and please pray for U$IC$ approval with us. This will be the most difficult wait for me so far. I pray the Lord makes it's a quick one and if that is not his plan I pray he brings me much strength and peace. Thank you all for your support during this time. Your words mean the world to me.
Now go hug someone you Love!
"... Once our eyes are opened,we can't pretend we don't know what to do. God who weighs our hearts and keeps our souls knows that we know, and holds us responsible to act ..." -- ~Proverbs 24:12
Hang in there, Amanda. I know how hard it is to wait, believe me!! In fact, I remember when you started your journey and the beginning of your blog... and overall I remember thinking that things were going so well for you. So hold on to the promises of His Word, and let His grace sustain you in the wait. Easier said than done!...again, I know!! But you'll be counting down the days to travel before you know it. I never thought our day would come, but finally, we leave 3 weeks from today! He IS faithful!! <><
ReplyDeleteBlessings,
~ Tanya
hang in there and before you know it time and things pick up pace.
ReplyDeleteMorning! Playing a little catch up with you - great posts all! I'm a huge breakfast person - but not a great gravey guy (much to my doctor's relief!) - I'll get you a goetta recipe one of these days - nothing easy about it - takes all afternoon - but worth it!
ReplyDeletePrayers that you stay on the 'short end' of the wait too!
hugs - aus and co.