Red Thread Chapter Two

As most of you already know Jason and I were approved to adopt a beautiful little girl from China last Thursday. We are both in awe at the outpouring of encouragement and prayers we have received from everyone. We are truly blessed to have such wonderful people in our lives. Although do not feel like “angles” or super special people as some have said. We are just average everyday parents with a little more room in our home and willing to open our hearts up to adoption. Desperately hoping our adoption will go through without a hitch and our hearts will not be broken.

How can one fall in love with a child they have never met? It's incredibly difficult for me to explain. But when you look into the eyes of your child for the first time, it will send chills down your spine, you will begin to well up with tears, and you will “just know“ that she was meant to be in your life! We already feel as though Lia is our daughter and have watched the video the adoption agency has sent us 2-3 times per day!

After receiving our approval Thursday, we are knee deep in paper work (OK well let’s be honest, I am knee deep in paperwork, Love Jason but he‘s not the “paperwork type“) this weekend . All of which needs to be sent to China within three days to receive our pre-approval from China. Yikes! Trying to take it one step at a time, I know everything will all get done. I am truly blessed to have the support of a close friend experienced in adopting from China. She has been helping and counseling me every step of the way. Thank the Lord for Amy! Love ya Girl! I do believe she will keep me sane during this emotional rollercoaster.

Yes, it has been an emotional rollercoaster. Quite honestly while I’m am very excited I am also very anxious during this process. It’s similar to being pregnant. You see two pink lines (decide to pursue adoption), get very excited and meet with your doctor to confirm (are “matched” with child) and then shout it from the mountaintops (blog and post it on face book, LOL). While very excited, in the first and second trimester, you're also very anxious. You feel like at any given moment something can go awry and you will have a “miscarriage”. I would say I’m in the “first trimester “ of adoption at this point. Needless to say everything is very new, exciting, and anxiety ridden. You want to do everything perfectly so you can realize your dream of a child. When I feel overwhelmed I cannot explain how much the support of my friends and family keeps me plugging away. Each day I am getting one step closer to my daughter. You all mean the world to me! Thank you and God bless you all!