Hard to believe it’s been one month on our Red Thread Journey to Lia. I came across this image today and it touched my heart. The kids and I've been talking about the fact that they grew in Mommy's tummy and Lia grows in my heart yet they are all my children. They are all so very excited and can’t wait to get Lia home. It warms my heart to know they already love their sister so much. I am beginning to realize that as much as I've tried to manage this "longing" I have for Lia. As much as I've tried to not let it consume me. I just can't help it. My heart is in China with my daughter and I cannot wait for her to come home. My heart just aches for her to come home soon.
I’m trying to find peace from God about the "when". I'm trying to not be worried about the finances. Jason and I are trusting in God for HIS plan to bring Lia home not our own. I believe he will work a miracle to bring Lia home according to his plan. Yet there is no avoiding this tug at my heartstrings to get her home asap so her mama can love on that little princess of ours. I find myself daydreaming about her smile, her giggle and her determination. Yes, it’s official, I’m head over heels in love. I thank the Lord for giving me this longing for her even though sometimes it breaks my heart that I can't hold her right now. Even though when I wake up in the morning I know that she is going to sleep half-way around the world. I believe all the insecurity, all the heart aches and all the waiting will be so very worth it. Thank You Lord for bringing us another child. Trust in Him at all times, O people; pour our your hearts to Him, for God is our refuge. Psalm 62:8
Hugs!
~Amanda
Hi Amanda!
ReplyDeleteI saw your post on the waiting children board. Congratulations on matching your family with Lia. It sounds like you'll be able to do wonderful things for her. I can see that you know it won't be easy, but...well, we are three months into our adoption of our 4-year-old daughter into our family of three bio children, and although not easy sometimes seems like an understatement, there aren't words for the magnitude and power of it, either.
I noticed that you were worried--people were commenting, I guess--about how close in age Lia is to your youngest. We have had that same challenge. I'm happy to email about it, or you could look at our blog---http://raisingdevils.com. I'd be lying if I said it was a cakewalk, but you get the kids you get, and that's the way it has to be!
Good luck to you.
KJ (aka Lola Granola)
Amanda,
ReplyDeleteI saw your post on the APC list and wanted to offer you encouragement. We have two daughters from China, now 8 and 6, and have found our local Families with Children from China group to be a great source of support over the years.
While we were waiting, we often turned to Internet groups, such as APC or other Yahoo Groups. The popular China Adopt Talk blog has a lively Special Needs section in its forum which might be helpful to you.
Above all, follow your heart and don't doubt yourself! Lia is beyond adorable and you have so much to offer her!
Best wishes on your adoption journey,
Jane, Ani, and Elia
Hi , you go, that is terrific news. I have watched her on the Holt site for a long time. However I knew she was too young for us and had too many SN, CCAA wouldn't approve us for her I know. So I am thrilled foro you! there is a HOlt list to that you cna join to talk to other families. we are journeying on our 5th adoption and we have done adoptions through Holt, number four was one of their waiting children but came through another agency . Holt is a great agency!
ReplyDeleteAdriana Cassani www.cassanichronicles.blogspot.com